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An Uncompromising Belgian Novelist’s Afterlife as a BookTok Star

一位不妥协的比利时小说家在BookTok上的来世
Jacqueline Harpman wrote her best-known works in the nineteen-nineties, but her fiction’s elegiac loneliness seems to anticipate our own solitary, screen-bound era.
雅克琳·阿普曼(Jacqueline Harpman)最知名的作品写于上世纪九十年代,但她小说中那种挽歌式的孤独,似乎预示了我们这个孤独、被屏幕束缚的时代。
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Go to any brick-and-mortar bookstore and you’ll probably see at least one table dedicated to titles that “pop on BookTok.” Since around 2020, the literary precinct of the social-media platform TikTok seems to have usurped older marketing and publicity strategies as a primary driver of sales. The hashtag’s more than fifty-two million videos tend to feature telegenic young people emoting in front of brightly colored shelves; the recommendations flow into each other, a self-replenishing stream. Many of the books the platform uplifts belong to commercial genres, such as romance and romantasy. But BookTok has also surfaced classics, including doorstops such as “Lonesome Dove” and “East of Eden” and short, lesser-known works in an emotional and lovelorn key, such as “White Nights,” from 1848, by Fyodor Dostoyevsky, and “No Longer Human,” from 1948, by the Japanese novelist Osamu Dazai.

走进任何一家实体书店,你大概都会看到至少一张桌子,专门摆放那些“在BookTok上爆火”的书。大约从2020年起,社交媒体平台TikTok的读书板块似乎已取代了更早的营销和宣传策略,成为销售的主要驱动力。这个标签下超过五千二百万个视频,往往都是上镜的年轻人在色彩鲜艳的书架前动情讲述;推荐内容汇成一条自我补充的河流。平台力推的许多书都属于商业类型,比如爱情小说和浪漫奇幻。但BookTok也发掘了一些经典作品,包括《孤独鸽》和《伊甸之东》这样的大部头,以及一些情感浓烈、书写失恋的短小冷门之作,比如费奥多尔·陀思妥耶夫斯基1848年的《白夜》,以及日本小说家太宰治1948年的《人间失格》。

If there’s an overlooked treasure that BookTok most deserves credit for rediscovering, it might be “I Who Have Never Known Men,” a slender novel by the Belgian Jewish author Jacqueline Harpman, which first appeared in English in 1997. In 2022, the nonprofit publisher Transit Books reissued the novel in a revised translation, from the French, by Ros Schwartz. Largely thanks to social media, it has since sold more than eight hundred thousand copies in North America alone; Harpman, who died in 2012, has attained a posthumous internet celebrity, replete with honorary Google Doodle. This summer, Transit published a trio of her short stories, never before seen in English, under the title “We Were Forbidden.”

如果说有一部被忽视的杰作,BookTok对其重新发现居功至伟,那可能就是比利时犹太作家雅克琳·阿普曼的薄薄的小说《我从未认识过男人》,该书英文版于1997年首次面世。2022年,非营利出版社Transit Books推出了由罗斯·施瓦茨(Ros Schwartz)从法语重新修订翻译的版本。主要归功于社交媒体,这本书此后仅在北美就售出超过八十万册;2012年去世的阿普曼,由此获得了一种身后的网络名声,甚至拥有了致敬她的谷歌涂鸦。今年夏天,Transit出版社出版了她的三部短篇小说,合集名为《我们曾被禁止》,这些作品此前从未以英文面世。

BookTok’s preferences may skew toward familiar beats and blunt-force sensation, but in Harpman the hive mind has alighted on something more capacious and slippery. “I Who Have Never Known Men” is a stubbornly unillusioned study of how isolation shapes and misshapes the human psyche. The book takes the form of a testimony that its nameless protagonist, the last survivor of an unknown catastrophe, is writing down as she dies of uterine cancer. Her earliest memories are of an underground bunker, patrolled by male guards with whips, where she was imprisoned with thirty-nine older women. She is innocent of parents, love, sex, what coffee tastes like, what an orange smells like, what the sky looks like.

BookTok的偏好或许倾向于熟悉的节奏和直白的情感冲击,但在阿普曼身上,这个蜂巢思维触及了某种更广阔、更难以捉摸的东西。《我从未认识过男人》是一部毫不妥协、不抱幻想的研究,探讨孤独如何塑造并扭曲人的心灵。这本书采用了一份证言的形式,由它那位无名的主人公——一场未知灾难的最后幸存者——在因子宫癌临终之际写下。她最早的记忆是一个地下掩体,由持鞭的男性守卫巡逻,她与三十九名年长女性一同被囚禁于此。她对父母、爱情、性、咖啡的味道、橙子的气味、天空的模样一无所知。

Not quite halfway through the novel, the soldiers vanish, leaving a door unlocked, and the prisoners climb a hundred stairs to find a world of neutral plains and unremittingly mild weather. They never learn why they were jailed, what happened during their internment, or even whether they’re on Earth or some other planet. They wander, encountering groups of dead captives, male and female, in bunkers like their own, but no living people. They build houses with stones and mud, cook communal meals, and forage for food and supplies. And then, one by one, they die, leaving the protagonist alone.

小说进行到将近一半时,士兵们消失了,留下一扇未锁的门,囚徒们爬上一百级台阶,发现了一个只有中性平原和始终温和天气的世界。她们始终不知道为何被囚禁,在被关押期间发生了什么,甚至不知道自己是在地球上还是别的星球。她们四处游荡,遇到了成群的死去俘虏,有男有女,都在和她们一样的掩体里,但没有活人。她们用石头和泥巴建房子,一起做饭,搜寻食物和补给。然后,她们一个接一个地死去,只留下主人公孤身一人。

Harpman’s picture of stripped-down desolation has resonated with many social-media users, who have praised the book’s “haunting” story and likened it to “staring into a void.” There’s an incongruity to the fact that an austere twentieth-century work of dystopian science fiction, which was admired when it was released for its philosophical rigor and inward focus, is finding new life on a social platform built out of clips that are disposable by design. But “I Who Have Never Known Men” has a fruitful vagueness. The narrator, purged of identifiers except for her yearning, her rational faculties, and her sense of unbelonging, is counterintuitively relatable—a portrait of rudimentary, universal humanity. (A whiff of melodrama to Harpman’s vision probably plays well online, too.)

阿普曼描绘的那种剥离一切的荒凉,引起了许多社交媒体用户的共鸣,他们称赞这本书的故事“令人难以忘怀”,并将其比作“凝视虚空”。一部二十世纪冷峻的反乌托邦科幻作品,在问世时因其哲学上的严谨和内向的关注而备受推崇,如今却在一个由刻意设计成一次性的短视频构成的社交平台上重获新生,这本身就有些格格不入。但《我从未认识过男人》有一种富有成效的模糊性。叙述者除了她的渴望、理性能力和格格不入之感外,被剥离了所有身份标识,这反而使她出人意料地容易让人产生共鸣——一幅关于基本、普遍人性的肖像。(阿普曼构想中的一丝通俗剧气息,大概在网上也很受欢迎。)

It might also matter that “I Who Have Never Known Men” is preoccupied with many of the same questions that BookTokers, with their ephemeral medium and their new role as cultural conservators, have reason to care about. What are the creative forms that persist after you’ve disappeared? What enables an art work to transcend the stream? Harpman was writing in a different era, but the elegiac loneliness of her fiction anticipates our own solitary and screen-bound present. Is there anyone out there? her book seems to ask. How do I find you?

同样重要的或许是,《我从未认识过男人》所关注的许多问题,正是BookTok用户们——凭借他们转瞬即逝的媒介和作为文化保存者的新角色——有理由去关心的。在你消失之后,能留存下来的创作形式是什么?是什么让一件艺术品能够超越信息流?阿普曼写作于一个不同的时代,但她小说中那种挽歌式的孤独,却预示了我们这个孤独、被屏幕束缚的当下。外面有人吗?她的书似乎在问。我怎样才能找到你?

Harpman was born in Etterbeek, Belgium, in 1929. During the Nazi occupation, she and her family fled to Morocco, where they lived until the end of the war, escaping the fate of several relatives on her father’s side, who died in Auschwitz. Back in her home country, Harpman began studying medicine, but had to stop after she contracted tuberculosis. She convalesced in a sanatorium for two years—an experience that, like the nightmare still fresh in the memory of European Jews, may have filtered into her prison plot. Her first book, “Love and Acacia,” was published in 1958, when she was nearing thirty, but she composed the majority of her fourteen novels in her fifties, sixties, and seventies. In the interim, she trained in psychology, and in 1980 she qualified as a psychoanalyst. (Her undergraduate dissertation was on Rorschach tests.) Appreciated but not idolized in her lifetime, she won a handful of prizes, including the Prix Médicis for “Orlanda,” from 1996, about a woman whose tomboyish tendencies split off from the rest of her psyche and jump into the body of a music journalist.

阿普曼1929年出生于比利时的埃特尔贝克。纳粹占领期间,她和家人逃往摩洛哥,在那里一直住到战争结束,从而逃脱了她父亲那边几位亲戚死于奥斯维辛的命运。回到祖国后,阿普曼开始学医,但因染上肺结核不得不中断。她在疗养院休养了两年——这段经历,如同欧洲犹太人记忆中仍历历在目的噩梦,可能渗透进了她的监狱情节。她的第一本书《爱与金合欢》出版于1958年,当时她年近三十,但她十四部小说中的大部分是在她五十、六十和七十多岁时完成的。在此期间,她接受了心理学训练,并于1980年获得了精神分析师的资格。(她的本科论文是关于罗夏墨迹测验的。)她在世时受到赏识但未被崇拜,赢得过一些奖项,包括1996年凭《奥兰达》获得的美第奇奖,这本书讲述了一个女人,她假小子般的倾向从自身心理中分裂出来,跳进了一位音乐记者的身体里。

Most of Harpman’s work that has so far been translated into English circles feelings of entrapment, disorientation, and exile. Psychoanalytic concepts—projection, attachment, wishes and wish fulfillment—loom large. Harpman portrays sexual fantasy, and its relation to writing, with startling frankness. Isolation becomes both an affliction and a muse in “I Who Have Never Known Men,” as the narrator spins out a sequence of erotic stories in her head. They star her youngest jailer, who, like his fellows, is forbidden to interact with his charges. (In a rare, sly note of comedy, she also stares at him incessantly, telling another woman that this is a form of resistance, and that she’s “invented something unexpected.”) Each fantasy, the girl says, produces “an extraordinary burst of light exploding inside me.” In pursuit of this “eruption,” she tells herself “increasingly long and complicated stories,” trying to outsmart her “inner audience” and retain the element of surprise. “My imagination developed,” she reports. “I had to exercise rigorous discipline.” Sometimes one part of her wants to get to the finale, but another part, “entranced by the pleasure of listening,” would prefer that the narrative keep going.

阿普曼迄今已译成英文的大部分作品,都围绕着困顿、迷失和流亡的感受。精神分析的概念——投射、依恋、愿望及愿望实现——显得尤为突出。阿普曼以惊人的坦率描绘了性幻想及其与写作的关系。在《我从未认识过男人》中,孤独既是折磨也是缪斯,叙述者在脑海中编织出一系列情色故事。故事的主角是她最年轻的狱卒,他和他的同伴一样,被禁止与看管的囚犯互动。(在一个罕见而狡黠的喜剧片段中,她还不停地盯着他看,并告诉另一个女人这是一种抵抗,她“发明了些意想不到的东西”。)女孩说,每一次幻想都会产生“一束非凡的光在我体内爆炸”。为了追求这种“爆发”,她给自己讲“越来越长、越来越复杂的故事”,试图智胜她的“内心观众”,保持惊喜感。“我的想象力发展了,”她报告说,“我必须进行严格的训练。”有时,她的一部分想要到达结局,但另一部分,“沉醉于聆听的愉悦”,宁愿叙事继续下去。

As the girl’s process evolves, the fictions themselves become at least as important as their physical effects, and a series of recurring characters turn into “old friends.” Her wistful hope is that a good enough story might yield companions so detailed and lively that they can satisfy her hunger for connection. She doesn’t realize how limited these friends are until she discovers books.

随着女孩这一过程的演变,虚构故事本身变得至少和它们的生理效果同等重要,一系列反复出现的角色变成了“老朋友”。她怀着一个怅惘的希望:一个好故事或许能产生足够细致、鲜活的同伴,来满足她对连接的渴望。直到她发现了书籍,她才意识到这些朋友是多么有限。
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Poignantly, given that all the living men in the novel are incarcerators, the narrator directs little hostility toward traditional masculine ideals. In fact, her account often seems suffused with longing for heterosexual relationships—for the husbands and the lovers that she, unlike the elder women in the bunker, will never have. “How could I consider myself a human being, I who have only known thirty-nine people and all of them women?” she asks. By this point, she no longer experiences eruptions, but she’s still conjuring up men. When death comes for her, she writes, “I will take my last ten steps to go and put these sheets of paper on the table . . . an emaciated old woman whose eyes, which no hand will close, will always be looking toward the door.”

令人心酸的是,鉴于小说中所有活着的男人都是监禁者,叙述者对传统的男性理想并未表现出多少敌意。事实上,她的叙述常常弥漫着对异性关系的渴望——对那些她与掩体中年长女性不同,永远无法拥有的丈夫和爱人的渴望。“我怎么能把自己当成一个人呢,我只认识三十九个人,还全都是女人?”她问道。到这时,她已不再经历那种爆发,但她仍在想象男人。当死亡来临时,她写道:“我将迈出最后十步,把这些纸放在桌子上……一个瘦弱的老妇人,眼睛——没有手会为它们合上——将永远望向门口。”

Yet is it really a man she’s waiting for, or some other type of partner? “Perhaps I have tried to create time” with the memoir project, the woman speculates. She is writing “for some unknown reader,” she continues, who will admit her work into their mind: “The reader and I thus mingled will constitute something living, that will not be me, because I will be dead, and will not be that person as they were before.” It’s an erotic fantasy that morphs into a metaphor of literary generation as sexual reproduction. Writing creates a life that will sustain the woman’s legacy—as long as someone is there to apprehend it. “Most likely no one will come,” she concludes.

然而,她等待的真的是一个男人,还是某种其他类型的伴侣?“也许我试图用这个回忆录计划来创造时间,”女人推测道。她是在为“某个未知的读者”而写,她继续写道,这个读者会接纳她的作品进入自己的思想:“读者和我如此交融,将构成某种活着的东西,那不会是我,因为我已经死了,也不会是那个人之前的模样。”这是一种情色幻想,它演变成了一个隐喻,将文学创作比作有性繁殖。写作创造了一个生命,它将维系女人的遗产——只要有人来理解它。“很可能没有人会来,”她总结道。

As potent as Harpman’s novel is, there’s an adolescent quality to “I Who Have Never Known Men,” which broods on its themes like a teen-ager who has just discovered existentialism. The book’s post-apocalyptic setting ennobles its meditations on selfhood and finitude; the narrator’s search for perpetuity is lent an unshakable gravity by her circumstances.

尽管阿普曼的小说如此有力,《我从未认识过男人》仍带有一种青春期的特质,它像一个刚发现存在主义的青少年一样,沉思着自己的主题。这本书的后末日背景,为其关于自我与有限性的冥想增添了崇高感;叙述者对永恒的追寻,因其处境而被赋予了一种不可动摇的庄重。

For readers who first met Harpman via her melancholic digital afterlife, “We Were Forbidden” will arrive as a revelation. The gem of the collection is its longest story, “The Broom Closet,” a sex farce that wrangles its author’s ideas about artistic permanence into a more prosaic form. The tale begins with a successful novelist in late middle age boarding a train after a publishing event. When her gaze falls on a stranger in the dining car, she’s overtaken by a fantasy involving a dashing army officer in Central Europe in the nineteen-twenties. In the daydream, she is a young and beautiful judge’s wife in “long suede gloves that buttoned up to the elbows,” and the artilleryman seduces her at the magistrates’ ball. They have sex in the titular closet (“We toppled over together among the feather dusters”); she’s been so sheltered in her marriage that, somewhat implausibly, she has never seen a penis. But she’s a quick study, and is soon plotting her husband’s murder, enlisting the aid of an assassin whom he has recently sentenced to death.

对于那些最初通过阿普曼忧伤的数字来世认识她的读者来说,《我们曾被禁止》的到来将是一个启示。这本合集里的瑰宝是最长的那篇《扫帚间》,一部性闹剧,它将其作者关于艺术永恒的理念,融入了一种更平凡的形式。故事始于一位成功的中年小说家,在参加完一场出版活动后登上火车。当她的目光落在餐车里一个陌生人身上时,她被一个幻想攫住,幻想中涉及二十世纪二十年代中欧一位英俊的军官。在白日梦里,她是一位年轻美丽的法官妻子,戴着“长及肘部、带纽扣的麂皮手套”,炮兵军官在法官舞会上引诱了她。他们在与故事同名的扫帚间里发生了关系(“我们一起倒在鸡毛掸子中间”);她在婚姻中备受庇护,以至于有点难以置信地,她从未见过阴茎。但她学得很快,不久便开始密谋杀害丈夫,并寻求一个刚被他判处死刑的刺客的帮助。

Unlike the unremittingly bleak and occasionally self-serious “I Who Have Never Known Men,” “The Broom Closet” is arch, light-fingered, and very funny. But its narrator follows the same progression from fantasy to fiction-making. Her adultery story initially evokes the imprisoned girl’s compensatory reveries, but over time its focus shifts. She grows increasingly invested in her side characters, lavishing attention and energy on scenes that have little to do with the original seduction. In the most affecting subplot, the assassin the wife has hired to kill her husband appears at the husband’s bedside, unaware that he is already dying (the diagnosis is “acute appendicitis, with necrotic enterocolitis”). Nature takes its course while the would-be murderer watches. “Poor us, little souls wandering through the chaos of our lives,” the author cries, in a voice that might be the husband’s, or the hit man’s, or her own. She’s gone from dreaming up person-shaped sex toys to mourning a supporting cast member, extending her imaginative empathy so far that she can’t bring herself to allow one of her creations to be offed without ceremony.

与《我从未认识过男人》那种持续阴郁、偶尔自命不凡的基调不同,《扫帚间》狡黠、轻巧,而且非常有趣。但它的叙述者遵循了从幻想到虚构创作的同样进程。她的通奸故事最初唤起了那个被囚女孩的补偿性幻想,但随着时间的推移,其焦点发生了转移。她越来越投入于她的配角,将注意力和精力倾注在与最初的诱惑关系不大的场景上。在最动人的支线情节中,妻子雇来杀丈夫的刺客出现在丈夫床边,却不知他已病危(诊断是“急性阑尾炎,伴有坏死性小肠结肠炎”)。在这位准凶手注视下,死神自然降临。“可怜的我们,在生命的混沌中游荡的小小灵魂,”作者喊道,这声音可能是丈夫的,也可能是杀手的,或是她自己的。她已经从幻想出人形性玩具,发展到哀悼一个配角,将她的共情想象力延伸得如此之远,以至于她不忍心让自己创造的一个角色毫无仪式感地被干掉。

The narrator of “The Broom Closet” can claim firsthand, intimate knowledge of men: she mentions a husband. But she doesn’t seem especially enamored of the guy, though she apparently lacks her alter ego’s taste for mariticide. What capacity she has for deep connection is expressed in her fiction. Like the child in “I Who Have Never Known Men,” she is preoccupied with her historical impact and pessimistic about the chance that her words will outlast her (albeit for reasons of literary fashion rather than planetary catastrophe). “I wanted to be loved, respected, and appreciated,” she writes, “but I will be forgotten.” She thinks that, if she’s lucky, a novel of hers “will be lying in the bookcase of one of my great-grandchildren, yellowing, dried up, likely to crumble to the touch . . . and my great-grandson’s new girlfriend will open it, read a few lines, and say: ‘Whoa! That style of writing is so outdated.’ Which will bury me once and for all.” Alienation may have acquired a kind of tragic glamour in Harpman’s best-known novel, but “The Broom Closet” renders it unremarkable, a function of quotidian human differences and difficulties rather than the end of the world.

《扫帚间》的叙述者可以宣称对男人有第一手的、亲密的了解:她提到了一位丈夫。但她似乎并不怎么迷恋这个男人,尽管她显然缺乏她另一个自我那种弑夫的癖好。她建立深层连接的能力,都表现在她的小说里。就像《我从未认识过男人》中的那个孩子一样,她全神贯注于自己的历史影响,并对自己的文字能否比她更长久地留存持悲观态度(尽管是出于文学时尚而非星球灾难的原因)。“我想要被爱、被尊重、被欣赏,”她写道,“但我将被遗忘。”她想,如果幸运的话,她的一本小说“会躺在我某个曾孙的书柜里,发黄、干枯,可能一碰就碎……而我曾孙的新女友会打开它,读几行,然后说:‘哇!这种写作风格也太老土了。’这将把我彻底埋葬。”在阿普曼最著名的小说中,疏离或许获得了一种悲剧性的魅力,但《扫帚间》却将其呈现得平淡无奇,它是日常人际差异和困难的结果,而非世界末日。

At one point in “I Who Have Never Known Men,” the narrator stumbles upon an abandoned home and, as BookTok might put it, is “utterly ruined” by what she discovers: walls “covered in a beautiful wood with a dark sheen,” carpets, paintings, vases, “a small carving.” The museumlike “interplay of lines, shapes and harmonious colours” brings her to tears.

在《我从未认识过男人》中,叙述者偶然发现了一处废弃的房屋,正如BookTok可能会说的那样,她被自己的发现“彻底击垮”了:墙壁“覆盖着带有暗色光泽的美丽木材”,地毯、画作、花瓶,“一件小雕刻”。那如同博物馆般的“线条、形状与和谐色彩的交织”让她潸然泪下。

The scene enlarges the nature of the narrator’s quest: she’s not looking for just a romantic partner or even a reader who will preserve her memory. What she has been starving for, more than individual people, is what people create together. Her profound loneliness stems from her lack of access to human culture, a set of shared traditions that survives one’s particular life and links it to the past and the future. If Harpman’s work has jumped from her time into our own, it may be because she appreciates the fragility of this emergent property of existence but honors it anyway. Her books attest to the potential for solitary selves to meet, merge, and multiply, producing something more beautiful and enduring than they can alone. ♦

这个场景扩展了叙述者追寻的本质:她寻找的不仅仅是一个浪漫伴侣,甚至不是一个能保存她记忆的读者。她所渴望的,比具体的人更甚,是人们共同创造的东西。她深切的孤独源于她无法接触到人类文化,那是一套共享的传统,它超越了个体生命,并将其与过去和未来连接起来。如果说阿普曼的作品从她的时代跃入了我们的时代,那或许是因为她懂得存在中这种涌现属性的脆弱,却依然对其致以敬意。她的书证明了孤独的自我有可能相遇、融合并繁衍,共同创造出比他们独自一人所能创造的更美、更持久的东西。♦

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