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I Used to Be a Horse

我曾是一匹马

I was powerful, graceful, and gorgeous.

我曾强健、优雅、光彩照人。

ByLisa Hanawalt

October 15, 2026

Illustration of a girl transforming into a horse.

Illustration of girl pretend horsing in grass and on trampoline.

Illustration of girl galloping with primate posture.

Illustration of girl walking on her hands and knees.

Illustration of bottom of girl's jeans that are torn at the knees and grassstained.

Illustration of mother sewing patches onto girl's jeans.

Illustration of girl kneeling in the grass.

Illustration of girl responding to her mother with a neigh.

Illustration of girls playing with a horse figurine.

Illustration of girl excitedly holding up a book with a horse in it.

Illustration of girl looking in mirror and seeing herself as a horse.

Illustration of girl walking on her hands and knees and another girl making fun of her.

Illustration of girl sitting in grass and wondering why boys don't like her.

Illustration of girl talking to her older brother.

Illustration of girl talking to her younger friend.

Illustration of girl secretly horsing.

Illustration of girl lying on her stomach and looking at fashion catalogues.

Illustration of woman trying to gallop at home.

Illustration of a horse running and a woman sitting on a horse's hind legs running.

Illustration of woman looking out car window and imagining a horse galloping next to it.

This is drawn from “I Can't Stop Thinking About Horses and Sex.”

本文源自《我无法停止思考马与性》。

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Originally published in The New Yorker · Read original