Essay

Can Extreme Morning Sickness Be Cured?

妊娠剧吐能治好吗?
For decades, the condition was thought to be psychological, and women were shamed for their illness. Now a scientist has found a biological cause.
几十年来,这种病一直被认为是心理问题,患病的女性因此蒙受羞辱。如今,一位科学家找到了它的生物学病因。
Illustration of a woman on a mattress in the sea
Illustration by Anna Parini

Despite having lived much of her adult life alongside tabloid photographers, Catherine, the Princess of Wales, is not generally prone to oversharing. Unlike her American sister-in-law, Meghan Markle, the Duchess of Sussex, Catherine tends to prefer to stick to the script. Her vibe is low drama, with a perfect blowout. Two years ago, after she cancelled several appearances following a cancer diagnosis, she waited so long to publicly announce her illness that the internet exploded with conspiracy theories. (She was not, after all, in recovery from a bad haircut or a Brazilian butt-lift.) However, in 2012, when she became pregnant with her first child, George—now second in line to the throne—she was forced to reveal this condition early. She couldn’t wait the customary twelve weeks before sharing the news because she was in the hospital, being treated for severe dehydration. Even princesses puke their guts out.

尽管成年后的大部分时间都生活在八卦摄影师的镜头下,威尔士王妃凯瑟琳通常并不习惯过度分享私事。与她的美国妯娌、苏塞克斯公爵夫人梅根·马克尔不同,凯瑟琳更倾向于按部就班。她的风格是低调行事,外加一头完美的波浪卷发。两年前,她因确诊癌症而取消了一系列公开活动后,拖了很久才公开病情,以至于网上炸开了锅,各种阴谋论四起。(毕竟,她并非因为剪坏了头发或做了巴西提臀术在休养。)然而,2012年,当她怀上第一个孩子乔治——如今的王位第二顺位继承人——时,她被迫提早透露了这个状况。她等不到惯例的十二周再分享消息,因为她正躺在医院里,接受严重脱水的治疗。即便是王妃,也会吐得翻江倒海。

Most people have heard of morning sickness. But when Catherine, then known mostly as Kate Middleton, became ill, it was the first time that many learned the term hyperemesis gravidarum, or H.G., which translates quite literally to “excessive vomiting during pregnancy.” The clinical definition of H.G. varies, but it refers to a disease characterized by extreme nausea and vomiting that goes beyond what is expected when you’re expecting. It is debilitating, and can be life-threatening for both the mother and the fetus; untreated, the fetal-loss rate is up to thirty-four per cent. No sign of these horrors appeared on Catherine’s person as she was discharged from the hospital. She left coiffed and smiling, holding yellow roses and mouthing the words “much better” to the assembled press. Yet her name is so linked to the condition that a friend of mine, in the depths of H.G., found solace in telling people she had “a touch of the Kate Middletons.”

大多数人都听说过孕吐。但当凯瑟琳——当时更多人称她为凯特·米德尔顿——病倒时,许多人第一次听说了“妊娠剧吐”(hyperemesis gravidarum,简称H.G.)这个术语,字面意思就是“孕期过度呕吐”。H.G.的临床定义不尽相同,但它指的是一种以极度恶心和呕吐为特征的疾病,其程度远超孕期应有的预期。它会使人虚弱不堪,甚至可能危及母婴生命;若不治疗,胎儿流产率高达百分之三十四。凯瑟琳出院时,这些恐怖的迹象在她身上毫无踪影。她发型精致,面带微笑,手捧黄玫瑰,用口型对聚集的媒体说“好多了”。然而,她的名字与这种病如此紧密相连,以至于我的一位正饱受H.G.折磨的朋友,在告诉别人她“有点凯特·米德尔顿那种毛病”时,竟从中找到了慰藉。

Some women take a less discreet approach. Consider the Amy Schumer documentary “Expecting Amy,” from 2020, in which Schumer, besieged unexpectedly by H.G. in her first pregnancy, documents her struggle in unsparing detail. There’s footage of her throwing up at home, but also in various vehicles, while recording a podcast, and before the start of shows. Her health becomes so unwieldy that she incorporates it into her act, shooting a promo for her special “Growing,” in which she pretends to vomit using what looks like oatmeal as a prop. She’s filmed being hospitalized and receiving intravenous fluids. Most of the time, she is able to joke about her condition, but sometimes she cracks. “I resent the culture and how much women have to suck it the fuck up,” she says at one point. “Do I sound like a little whiny bitch?”

有些女性则采取了不那么含蓄的方式。想想艾米·舒默2020年的纪录片《期待艾米》,舒默在第一次怀孕时意外地被H.G.缠身,她用毫不留情的细节记录了自己的挣扎。片中有她在家里呕吐的镜头,也有在各种各样的车里、在录制播客时、在演出开始前呕吐的画面。她的健康状况变得如此难以控制,以至于她将其融入了表演,为她的特别节目《成长》拍摄了一段宣传片,片中她用看起来像燕麦片的东西当道具假装呕吐。她被拍到住院并接受静脉输液。大多数时候,她都能拿自己的状况开玩笑,但有时她也会崩溃。“我憎恨这种文化,憎恨女人得他妈的多能忍,”她一度说道,“我听起来是不是像个爱发牢骚的贱人?”

In the early-two-thousands rom-coms of my youth, a demure puke was often the first, sometimes the only, sign that our stylish heroine’s life was about to change, big time. The ambitious television reporter played by Katherine Heigl in “Knocked Up,” gets her first inkling that she might be pregnant when she throws up during an on-camera interview with James Franco. In “Juno,” the twee 2007 film about teen pregnancy, Elliot Page’s character, attempting to conceal her condition, pukes the remnants of a blue slushie into her stepmother’s vase. “I would never barf in your urn, Brenda,” she says at dinner, when confronted. Like fainting, craving pickles, or struggling to wiggle into skinny jeans, vomiting, in the cultural imagination, is a stand-in for imminent motherhood, as legible as any pregnancy test.

在我青春时代的21世纪初浪漫喜剧片中,一次矜持的呕吐往往是那位时尚女主角的生活即将发生巨变的第一个,有时甚至是唯一的信号。在《一夜大肚》中,凯瑟琳·海格尔饰演的雄心勃勃的电视记者,在一次与詹姆斯·弗兰科的出镜采访中呕吐时,第一次隐约意识到自己可能怀孕了。在2007年那部关于青少年怀孕的矫情电影《朱诺》中,艾略特·佩吉饰演的角色试图隐瞒自己的状况,把蓝色冰沙的残余物吐到了继母的花瓶里。“布伦达,我绝不会吐在你的骨灰盒里,”晚餐时被质问时,她说道。就像晕倒、渴望吃腌黄瓜、或者费力地穿上紧身牛仔裤一样,在文化想象中,呕吐是即将成为母亲的象征,和任何验孕棒一样清晰可辨。

Some amount of morning sickness—a misnomer, since it can strike at any hour—is a normal part of many pregnancies. A woman’s sense of smell can increase; you may be able to sniff out the raw meat at a butcher shop, your neighbor’s shampoo as she walks by, or the contents of your dishwasher, with nauseating effects. Your morning cup of coffee may become gag-worthy. But in H.G. even these symptoms are taken to an extreme.

一定程度的孕吐——这是个用词不当,因为它随时都可能发作——是许多孕期的正常组成部分。女性的嗅觉会增强;你或许能嗅出肉铺里的生肉味、邻居走过时洗发水的味道,或是洗碗机里的内容物,并产生恶心的感觉。你早上的那杯咖啡可能变得令人作呕。但在H.G.中,即便是这些症状也被推向了极端。

Women with H.G. often become aware that they are pregnant from the sheer force of their nausea. In interviews with more than a dozen women who had experienced the disease, I heard stories of debilitating symptoms that started in the early weeks of pregnancy and often continued right up until birth. That’s nearly nine months of the worst hangover of your life. Some women vomited upward of twenty times a day; many had been hospitalized. There is no reliable pre-pregnancy test to determine if a woman will develop H.G., so first-time parents are often taken by surprise. One woman told me having H.G. felt like being “on a shipping boat in the Atlantic, in the middle of a storm, and you can’t get off, and the only relief is sleep or death. I’d vomit, and then briefly, there’d be half a second’s respite, and then [the nausea] was there again.” Another woman, in the last weeks of her pregnancy, told me, “It’s like I got dropped into a marathon I didn’t want to run.”

患有H.G.的女性常常单凭那股剧烈的恶心感就意识到自己怀孕了。在采访了十多位经历过这种疾病的女性后,我听到了关于这些令人衰弱的症状的故事,它们始于怀孕的最初几周,常常一直持续到分娩。那感觉就像是长达近九个月的人生中最严重的宿醉。有些女性一天呕吐超过二十次;许多人曾住院治疗。目前没有可靠的孕前检测来判断女性是否会患上H.G.,所以初为父母者常常措手不及。一位女性告诉我,患上H.G.的感觉就像“待在一艘航行在大西洋上的船里,身处风暴中心,你下不了船,唯一的解脱是睡觉或死亡。我会呕吐,然后短暂地,有半秒钟的喘息,接着[恶心感]又卷土重来。”另一位处于孕晚期的女性告诉我,“这就像我被扔进了一场我不想跑的马拉松。”

Studies show that the disease occurs in up to three per cent of pregnancies, though the real incidence may be higher, according to the Hyperemesis Education and Research Foundation (HER). The official figures only account for the most severe cases of H.G., in which women are treated for dehydration and other complications in the hospital. They do not account for untreated H.G., or for the many women who terminate their pregnancy because of the severity of their symptoms before receiving a diagnosis. A 2021 meta-analysis showed that up to sixteen per cent of women took anti-vomiting drugs during pregnancy. “Hyperemesis (HG) is not really a rare disorder,” the foundation says on its website. Despite its prevalence and severity, researchers have struggled to get resources. Funding from the National Institutes of Health for maternal-health projects has decreased by roughly forty per cent during President Trump’s second term. On moms.gov, a new website by the Department of Health and Human Services for new and expecting mothers, H.G. does not appear on a list of health conditions that may affect pregnant women. (The list is curiously short, featuring just four complications, including gestational diabetes and “depression among women.”) Marlena Fejzo, a geneticist at the University of Southern California who has devoted her career to studying H.G. since experiencing it herself, told me, “It’s the second leading cause of hospitalization in pregnancy after preterm birth, and yet it’s often not considered a pregnancy condition. It’s not taken seriously. And women are aborting.”

研究表明,这种疾病的发生率高达百分之三的孕期,但根据妊娠剧吐教育与研究基金会(HER)的说法,真实发病率可能更高。官方数据只统计了最严重的H.G.病例,即那些因脱水和其他并发症在医院接受治疗的女性。这些数据并未计入未经治疗的H.G.,也未计入那些因症状严重而在确诊前就终止妊娠的众多女性。一项2021年的荟萃分析显示,高达百分之十六的女性在孕期服用过止吐药。“妊娠剧吐(HG)其实并非罕见病,”该基金会在其网站上表示。尽管它普遍且严重,研究人员却一直难以获得资源。在特朗普总统的第二任期内,美国国立卫生研究院(National Institutes of Health)对孕产妇健康项目的资助减少了大约百分之四十。在卫生与公众服务部为待产和新手妈妈开设的新网站moms.gov上,H.G.并未出现在可能影响孕妇的健康状况列表中。(这份列表出奇地短,仅包含四种并发症,包括妊娠期糖尿病和“女性抑郁症”。)南加州大学的遗传学家玛莲娜·费佐(Marlena Fejzo)在亲身经历H.G.后,将职业生涯奉献给了对这种疾病的研究。她告诉我:“这是仅次于早产的第二大孕期住院原因,但它却常常不被视为一种孕期疾病。它没有得到认真对待。而女性们正在选择流产。”

In May, I met with Fejzo at an international conference for hyperemesis gravidarum, held at a quaint hotel at the base of a fjord near Bergen, Norway. Fejzo is in her late fifties, petite and brunette, with birdlike features and a polite intensity. In the H.G. world, she is something of a celebrity; in 2024, she was named a Time Woman of the Year. In recent years, the research on H.G. has made startling leaps. Not long ago, many clinicians, including Fejzo’s own doctor, still regarded the illness as a psychological rejection of motherhood, or a bid for attention. Fejzo’s work has upended those assumptions, uncovering a distinct biological cause for H.G., and opening up new pathways for prevention, treatment or a cure. Speaking with me, Fejzo grew emotional. “It’s been a long road,” she said. “What happened to me is definitely a motivator. If this didn’t happen to me, I’m sure I would have given up long ago.”

五月,我在挪威卑尔根附近一个峡湾脚下古色古香的酒店里,参加了一场关于妊娠剧吐的国际会议,并在那里见到了费佐。费佐快六十岁了,身材娇小,深色头发,有着小鸟般的五官和一种礼貌的专注。在H.G.领域,她算是个名人;2024年,她被《时代》杂志评为年度女性。近年来,关于H.G.的研究取得了惊人的飞跃。就在不久前,许多临床医生,包括费佐自己的医生,仍然认为这种病是对母性的心理排斥,或是为了博取关注。费佐的工作颠覆了这些假设,揭示了H.G.明确的生物学病因,并为预防、治疗或治愈开辟了新的途径。与我交谈时,费佐情绪激动起来。“这是一条漫长的路,”她说,“发生在我身上的事绝对是一个动力。如果这事没发生在我身上,我肯定早就放弃了。”

An odd thing about the world of maternal health is that, because the research is so badly funded, often the leading experts on a given disease have come to it through personal experience. At the hotel in Norway, attendees gathered for a meet and greet in the lobby. Over non-alcoholic spritzes, I spoke with nurses, midwives, researchers, and activists who had developed an interest in the condition after surviving H.G. The crowd skewed heavily female. One red-headed midwife from Utah told me that she had lost a job she loved during a bad stretch of illness. Sara Vanover, a stay-at-home mom with rhinestone-studded glasses, had flown in from Indiana. She was hospitalized for seven weeks in her second pregnancy, she said, and had lost a tooth from the acidic bouts of vomiting. She pointed to her jaw to show me where being sick had caused bone decay.

孕产妇健康领域的一个奇特之处在于,由于研究经费严重不足,某种疾病的顶尖专家往往是因亲身经历而投身其中的。在挪威的酒店里,与会者聚集在大堂参加见面会。喝着无酒精气泡饮料,我与一些护士、助产士、研究人员和活动人士交谈,他们都是在亲身熬过H.G.后对这种病产生了兴趣。人群中女性占了绝大多数。一位来自犹他州的红发助产士告诉我,她在一次严重的发病期间失去了一份心爱的工作。戴着水钻装饰眼镜的全职妈妈萨拉·瓦诺弗(Sara Vanover)从印第安纳州飞来。她说,她在第二次怀孕时住院七周,并因为酸性呕吐物而掉了一颗牙。她指着自己的下巴,向我展示生病是如何导致骨质流失的。

The history of hyperemesis can be hard to stomach. As far back as antiquity, physicians have observed the dangers of excessive vomiting in pregnancy. Hippocrates noted that pregnant women who ate too little faced an increased risk of miscarriage. In the fourth century, Oribasius, the Roman emperor Julian the Apostate’s personal physician, in a set of guidelines for prenatal care, recommended long walks, fragrant white wine, and, occasionally, mustard. The tenth-century Persian physician Rhazes suggested small, protein-rich meals of chicken or goat to encourage good humors, and quinces and pomegranates to restore appetite. In the nineteenth century, doctors began to differentiate between normal levels of pregnancy sickness and the uncontrollable vomiting of H.G. They wondered where the symptoms were coming from. Was it a pelvic lesion? A rigid cervix? A bacterial infection? They prescribed cold drinks, opium, enemas, and hydrogen cyanide. As a last resort, they aborted the pregnancy, though many women, already weakened by months of illness, did not survive the procedure. Charlotte Brontë, the author of “Jane Eyre,” who died, at thirty-eight, a few months into pregnancy, in 1855, experienced “sensations of perpetual nausea and ever-recurring faintness,” according to her biographer and friend Elizabeth Gaskell. Though her death certificate lists the cause of death as phthisis, or tuberculosis, contemporary scholars believe she died of complications from H.G.

妊娠剧吐的历史可能令人难以接受。早在古代,医生们就观察到了孕期过度呕吐的危险。希波克拉底指出,吃得太少的孕妇面临更高的流产风险。公元四世纪,罗马皇帝“叛教者”尤利安的私人医生奥利巴修斯,在一套产前护理指南中,建议进行长距离散步、饮用芳香的白葡萄酒,偶尔还要用芥末。十世纪的波斯医生拉齐建议少食多餐,吃富含蛋白质的鸡肉或山羊肉餐,以促进良好的体液平衡,并食用榅桲和石榴来恢复食欲。到了十九世纪,医生们开始区分正常的孕期恶心和H.G.那种无法控制的呕吐。他们想知道症状从何而来。是盆腔病变吗?是宫颈僵硬吗?还是细菌感染?他们开出的处方包括冷饮、鸦片、灌肠剂和氢氰酸。作为最后的手段,他们会终止妊娠,尽管许多女性已被数月的疾病折磨得虚弱不堪,没能挺过手术。《简·爱》的作者夏洛特·勃朗特于1855年去世,享年三十八岁,当时她怀孕几个月。据她的传记作者兼朋友伊丽莎白·盖斯凯尔描述,她经历了“持续不断的恶心感和反复发作的眩晕”。虽然她的死亡证明上列出的死因是痨病,即肺结核,但当代学者认为她死于H.G.并发症。

In the twentieth century, doctors turned their attention to the mind. If they could not find a solution rooted in the body, perhaps the problem was psychological. The cultural anthropologist Margaret Mead suggested that women experiencing nausea were being influenced by friends who were “setting the stage for how terribly she is going to feel” during pregnancy. (Those pesky friends!) In 1952, the psychiatrist Sidney Rosen noted, “Nausea and vomiting have been considered an unconscious manifestation of oral rejection of the fetus, a repudiation of femininity, self-punishment, and punishment of the father.”

到了二十世纪,医生们将注意力转向了精神层面。如果他们找不到根植于身体的原因,那么问题也许出在心理上。文化人类学家玛格丽特·米德提出,经历恶心的女性是受到了朋友的影响,这些朋友“为她在孕期会感觉多么糟糕做好了铺垫”。(那些多嘴的朋友!)1952年,精神病学家西德尼·罗森指出:“恶心和呕吐一直被认为是口头排斥胎儿的一种无意识表现,是对女性气质的否定、自我惩罚,以及对父亲的惩罚。”

Doctors began using “isolation therapy,” removing women from friends and family, and denying them a sick bowl, with the goal of getting them to accept the pregnancy. Philippe Deruelle, a professor of obstetrics at Montpellier University, told me that, before he helped revise France’s national guidelines for H.G., “the protocol was to put women in a dark room. She was not allowed to see family, or husband,” he said. No phone calls, no television, no meals. The hypothesis was, “If you cannot vomit anymore, if you are punished, then you will stop the vomiting.” One woman, who was treated at a hospital in southern France, in 2021, told me that she was placed in isolation three separate times, for a week each time. She was told, variously, that she was rejecting her baby because she was not grieving the death of a friend, and because she hadn’t resolved a difficult relationship with her brothers. In her second pregnancy, a few years later, she was again isolated and denied visits from her partner and young daughter. Another woman, who was hospitalized in central France, in 2018, told me that she was placed in a dark room for eight days, and prevented from turning on the light or opening the shutters. Doctors told her that she was sick because she wasn’t ready for the pregnancy and that she was “vomiting out her baby.” “These are traumas that will stay with me forever,” she told me. In 2022, when Deruelle went to revise the guidelines for H.G. in France, he found that some doctors were still isolating women. Even today, “When the doctor cannot treat H.G., they say, ‘O.K., we will send you to the psychiatrist.’ ”

医生们开始使用“隔离疗法”,将女性与朋友和家人隔离开来,不给她们呕吐盆,目的是让她们接受怀孕。蒙彼利埃大学产科学教授菲利普·德吕埃尔(Philippe Deruelle)告诉我,在他帮助修订法国H.G.国家指南之前,“当时的方案是把女性关进一个黑暗的房间。她不能见家人或丈夫,”他说。没有电话,没有电视,没有饭菜。其假设是,“如果你不能再吐了,如果你受到了惩罚,那么你就会停止呕吐。”一位2021年在法国南部一家医院接受治疗的女性告诉我,她先后三次被隔离,每次为期一周。她被告知,她排斥自己的孩子,原因五花八门,比如她没有为一位朋友的去世而悲伤,以及她没有处理好与兄弟们的一段艰难关系。几年后,在她第二次怀孕时,她再次被隔离,并被拒绝与伴侣和年幼的女儿见面。另一位2018年在法国中部住院的女性告诉我,她被关在一个黑暗的房间里长达八天,并且被禁止开灯或打开百叶窗。医生告诉她,她生病是因为她还没为怀孕做好准备,她正在“把孩子吐出来”。“这些是永远伴随我的创伤,”她告诉我。2022年,当德吕埃尔着手修订法国的H.G.指南时,他发现一些医生仍在隔离女性。即使在今天,“当医生无法治疗H.G.时,他们会说,‘好吧,我们送你去精神科医生那儿。’”

The lack of knowledge around the disease has left many women in the wilderness, trying to treat themselves. Speaking with former patients, I found a range of approaches. When symptoms first arrived, women were often advised to eat frequent, small meals, take supplemental B6 vitamins, and try ginger. (“Fucking ginger,” my friend who had H.G. said.) On online forums for H.G., women desperate to stop the nausea compare notes on alternative therapies, including acupuncture, Reiki, hypnosis, and microdosing marijuana. Many women were prescribed antihistamines or Zofran, an anti-vomiting drug which can be taken orally or, in more extreme cases, through a device, worn like a fanny pack, that injects continually into one’s body. I spoke with one woman, a dental hygienist who lives outside of Atlanta, Georgia, who was still dealing with medical debt from her Zofran pump, even as she entertained her six-month-old.

围绕这种疾病的知识匮乏,使得许多女性孤立无援,只能尝试自我治疗。与曾经的病患交谈,我发现了各种各样的方法。当症状首次出现时,女性常常被建议少食多餐,补充维生素B6,并尝试生姜。(“该死的生姜,”我那位患H.G.的朋友说。)在H.G.的在线论坛上,绝望地想要止住恶心的女性们交流着各种替代疗法的心得,包括针灸、灵气疗法、催眠和微剂量大麻。许多女性被开了抗组胺药或佐芬(Zofran),这是一种止吐药,可以口服,或者在更极端的情况下,通过一个像腰包一样佩戴的装置,持续向体内注射。我与一位住在佐治亚州亚特兰大郊外的牙科保健员交谈过,她一边逗弄着自己六个月大的孩子,一边还在为她的佐芬泵支付医疗债务。

Fejzo grew up in West Los Angeles, part of a tight-knit family with three siblings. Her mother was a German-language professor, and her father was a judge. Fejzo excelled academically, played the flute, and ran cross-country. She eventually got a Ph.D. in genetics, at Harvard. In 1996, while working on a postdoc at the University of California, San Francisco, she became pregnant with her first child. She felt sick almost immediately. She struggled to keep food down, and was unable to work for eight weeks. She lost fifteen pounds and went to the emergency room twice to receive I.V. fluids. She felt awful, but by the second trimester she had mostly recovered. She went back to work and eventually gave birth to a healthy baby boy.

费佐在洛杉矶西部长大,是一个关系紧密的家庭的一员,有三个兄弟姐妹。她的母亲是德语教授,父亲是法官。费佐学业优异,会吹长笛,还参加越野跑。她最终在哈佛大学获得了遗传学博士学位。1996年,在加州大学旧金山分校做博士后研究时,她怀上了第一个孩子。她几乎立刻就感到不适。她难以进食,有八周时间无法工作。她瘦了十五磅,两次去急诊室接受静脉输液。她感觉糟透了,但到了孕中期,她基本恢复了。她回去工作,最终生下了一个健康的男孩。

Two years later, she became pregnant again, with a girl, but this time the sickness was much more intense. “I didn’t think it could be worse,” she said. She couldn’t eat, drink, or move without “violently vomiting.” “I just had to lie completely flat on my back. If I sat up, even, I would vomit. It was like being paralyzed.” She stared at the ceiling while her nurse administered different medications to try to control the nausea, but nothing worked. She recalled foaming at the mouth like “a poisoned animal.” Her parents, who had recently retired, took turns caring for her, while her husband looked after their two year old. She shrank to less than ninety pounds, becoming so weak that she needed a buzzer to communicate. “I was really starving,” she said. Eventually, she had a feeding tube placed. She was too ill to visit her doctor in person, but he never came to see her at home. When her family tried to communicate the severity of her symptoms, he accused Fejzo of exaggerating to win the attention of her husband and parents. At fifteen weeks, she started bleeding, and when she arrived at the hospital she learned that she had lost the baby. Afterward, her milk came in. “It was really sad,” she said softly.

两年后,她再次怀孕,是个女孩,但这次的反应要剧烈得多。“我没想到情况会更糟,”她说。她无法进食、喝水或移动,否则就会“剧烈呕吐”。“我只能完全平躺着。哪怕只是坐起来,我都会吐。那感觉就像瘫痪了一样。”她盯着天花板,护士给她用不同的药物试图控制恶心,但都无济于事。她回忆说自己口吐白沫,像“一只中毒的动物”。她刚退休的父母轮流照顾她,而她的丈夫则照看他们两岁的孩子。她瘦到不足九十磅,虚弱得需要一个蜂鸣器来与人交流。“我真的快饿死了,”她说。最终,她插上了饲管。她病得太重,无法亲自去看医生,但医生也从未上门来看她。当她的家人试图说明她症状的严重性时,医生指责费佐是为了博取丈夫和父母的关注而夸大其词。怀孕十五周时,她开始出血,到达医院后得知孩子已经没了。之后,她的乳汁来了。“那真是太悲伤了,”她轻声说道。

When Fejzo returned to work—now at the University of California, Los Angeles—she told her boss that she wanted to work on H.G. “She started laughing in my face,” Fejzo recalled. At the time, H.G. research was not considered a viable career path. She accepted a role studying ovarian cancer instead, and spent her free time collecting data on hyperemesis. Alongside her work, she pursued another pregnancy, by surrogate, and had twin daughters.

当费佐重返工作岗位——此时是在加州大学洛杉矶分校——她告诉老板她想研究H.G.。“她当着我的面大笑起来,”费佐回忆道。那时,H.G.研究不被认为是一条可行的职业道路。她接受了研究卵巢癌的职位,并利用业余时间收集关于妊娠剧吐的数据。在工作的同时,她通过代孕再次尝试怀孕,并拥有了一对双胞胎女儿。

One of Fejzo’s brothers was a statistician at U.C.L.A., and he helped her put together a broad questionnaire about H.G. She wanted to know what medications people with H.G. were taking, if it would come back in subsequent pregnancies, and if it ran in families. “There were just so many unanswered questions,” she said. People found the survey on her brother’s website, and later through the HER Foundation, and sent their answers back to Fejzo. She noticed that women who reported H.G. were likely to have a relative who had also experienced it. She began collecting saliva samples from respondents, with the goal of running a genetic study. For years, she stored the samples in a freezer at her lab at U.C.L.A, devoting her weekends to expanding the collection.

费佐的一个兄弟是加州大学洛杉矶分校的统计学家,他帮她设计了一份关于H.G.的广泛问卷。她想知道H.G.患者正在服用什么药物,这种病是否会在后续怀孕中复发,以及是否有家族遗传倾向。“当时有太多悬而未决的问题了,”她说。人们在她兄弟的网站上找到了这份调查,后来又通过HER基金会找到,并将答案发回给费佐。她注意到,报告H.G.的女性很可能有一位同样经历过此病的亲属。她开始从受访者那里收集唾液样本,目标是进行一项基因研究。多年来,她将样本储存在加州大学洛杉矶分校实验室的冰柜里,把周末时间都用来扩大样本收集。

Fejzo had also been working on a different approach. In 2010, her brother had bought her a 23andMe DNA test for her birthday. Fejzo noticed how much data the company was collecting through supplemental surveys. She called a number there and asked if they could add a few questions on H.G., and they agreed. A few years later, they had collected enough data to run a genome-wide association study. In 2015, Fejzo applied to the N.I.H. for funding for a study that would use both the 23andMe data and the fifteen hundred saliva samples she had collected in her lab freezer. Her application was denied. “It wasn’t even reviewed,” she told me.

费佐也一直在研究另一种方法。2010年,她的兄弟送给她一份23andMe的DNA检测作为生日礼物。费佐注意到该公司通过补充调查收集了多少数据。她拨通了那里的一个号码,询问他们能否添加几个关于H.G.的问题,他们同意了。几年后,他们收集到了足够的数据来进行全基因组关联研究。2015年,费佐向美国国立卫生研究院(N.I.H.)申请经费,用于一项同时使用23andMe数据和她实验室冰柜里收集的一千五百份唾液样本的研究。她的申请被拒绝了。“它甚至没有进入评审环节,”她告诉我。

Fejzo applied for N.I.H. funding again in 2016, and was again denied. Finally, she secured grants from the Eppley Foundation, which funds innovative scientific research, and the HER Foundation. In 2018, Fejzo and her colleagues published a paper identifying a gene linked to H.G., which codes for a hormone called GDF15. In 2022, she published another study which confirmed the link between H.G. and the gene. A third study, published the following year in collaboration with an international team, showed how the hormone predisposed certain women to H.G. Two and half decades after experiencing H.G., she had found its cause.

费佐在2016年再次向N.I.H.申请经费,再次被拒。最终,她从资助创新科学研究的埃普利基金会和HER基金会获得了资助。2018年,费佐及其同事发表了一篇论文,确定了一个与H.G.相关的基因,该基因编码一种名为GDF15的激素。2022年,她发表了另一项研究,证实了H.G.与该基因之间的联系。次年,她与一个国际团队合作发表的第三项研究,展示了这种激素如何使某些女性易患H.G.。在亲身经历H.G.二十五年后,她找到了病因。

The reaction from the medical community was ecstatic. Deruelle, the French obstetrician, described Fejzo’s work as “monumental” and a “definitive turning point in maternal medicine.” “For decades,” he wrote to me, “HG was profoundly misunderstood, frequently dismissed by the medical establishment as a psychosomatic response or a manifestation of psychological resistance to pregnancy.” Fejzo’s research had shown a biological cause. “Her work delivers an invaluable gift to millions of suffering women worldwide,” he went on. It allows clinicians to state “with absolute scientific certainty that ‘it is not in your head.’ ”

医学界的反应是欣喜若狂的。法国产科医生德吕埃尔将费佐的工作描述为“里程碑式的”和“孕产医学的一个决定性转折点”。“几十年来,”他写信给我说,“HG被严重误解,经常被医学界视为心身反应或对怀孕的心理抗拒表现而不予理会。”费佐的研究揭示了生物学病因。“她的工作为全世界数百万受苦的女性献上了一份无价的礼物,”他继续说道。它让临床医生能够“以绝对的科学确定性声明‘这不是你脑子里想出来的’。”

Fejzo had never heard of GDF15 before it showed up in her research. A naturally occurring hormone, it exists at some level in all humans—whatever sex, pregnant or not—and causes food aversions and vomiting when the body is under stress. (It has been observed in cancer patients who are unable to stomach food while undergoing chemotherapy.) It may have developed as a protective measure, a holdover from a time when leaving home to find food was risky. “We think it evolved as a way to tell you that you’re more likely to survive if you don’t go out searching for food,” Fejzo said. “If you were in a weakened state because some part of your body was ill, or under some kind of stress, and you went out searching for food, you’d be more likely to get attacked by a lion, or die from eating something poisonous, or catch some kind of infection.”

在它出现在自己的研究中之前,费佐从未听说过GDF15。这是一种天然存在的激素,在所有人体内都有一定水平——无论性别,无论是否怀孕——并且当身体处于压力下时,会引起食物厌恶和呕吐。(在因化疗而无法进食的癌症患者身上也观察到了这种现象。)它可能是作为一种保护措施进化而来的,是那个离家觅食充满风险的时代遗留下来的产物。“我们认为它进化出来是为了告诉你,如果你不出去找食物,你更有可能活下来,”费佐说。“如果你因为身体某部分生病或处于某种压力下而处于虚弱状态,然后你出去寻找食物,你更有可能被狮子攻击,或者死于吃了有毒的东西,或者感染某种疾病。”

During pregnancy, the placenta produces high levels of GDF15, and the sudden increase triggers the queasiness we associate with first-trimester morning sickness. Once upon a time, this may have been helpful in warning pregnant women away from dangerous foods: lethal berries, raw meat. But women with H.G. experience a turbocharged version of this change. Most women who experience H.G. carry unusually low levels of GDF15 before pregnancy, often because of a variation in their genes, so that when they become pregnant the rise in the hormone is dramatic and destabilizing. One theory is that this can then prompt a stress response that releases more of the hormone, sending the woman into an H.G. “spiral,” as Fejzo has called it. “We probably don’t need this behavior anymore, but we haven’t evolved out of it yet, unfortunately,” she said.

在怀孕期间,胎盘会产生高水平的GDF15,这种突然的增加会引发我们常说的孕早期晨吐的恶心感。曾几何时,这可能有助于警告孕妇远离危险食物:致命的浆果、生肉。但患有H.G.的女性经历的是这种变化的加强版。大多数患H.G.的女性在怀孕前携带异常低水平的GDF15,这通常是由于她们基因的变异所致,因此当她们怀孕时,激素的上升是剧烈且不稳定的。一种理论认为,这会引发一种应激反应,释放出更多的激素,使女性陷入费佐所称的H.G.“螺旋”。“我们可能不再需要这种行为,但不幸的是,我们还没有进化掉它,”她说。

Fejzo’s discovery has reshaped the field, opening up new lines of inquiry. Could GDF15’s effects be interrupted somehow? Could they be muted? Or even prevented altogether? NGM Bio, a Bay Area biotech company, is working on a new drug that would block the hormone from binding to its receptor in the brain and triggering nausea during pregnancy. (It’s unclear how expensive the drug will be; a clinical trial is under way.) Last year, Fejzo designed a study of the widely available drug metformin, which is already safely used on pregnant women with gestational diabetes and polyendocrine metabolic ovarian syndrome. The idea is that the medication will artificially raise the level of GDF15 in a woman’s blood over several months before pregnancy, allowing her to slowly adjust to the hormone and, hopefully, avoid severe symptoms. Once again, Fejzo struggled to find funding. Her application for a federal grant was denied, and she knew a pharmaceutical company wouldn’t be willing to sponsor a trial for a medication that was already so accessible.

费佐的发现重塑了这一领域,开辟了新的研究方向。GDF15的作用能否以某种方式被阻断?能否被减弱?甚至能否被完全预防?湾区生物技术公司NGM Bio正在研发一种新药,旨在阻止这种激素与大脑中的受体结合,从而避免在孕期引发恶心。(目前尚不清楚这种药的价格;一项临床试验正在进行中。)去年,费佐设计了一项关于广泛可用的药物二甲双胍的研究,这种药物已经安全地用于患有妊娠期糖尿病和多囊卵巢综合征的孕妇。其思路是,通过在怀孕前几个月人为地提高女性血液中的GDF15水平,让她慢慢适应这种激素,从而有望避免严重症状。费佐再次难以找到资助。她的联邦拨款申请被拒绝,而且她知道制药公司不会愿意赞助一种已经如此普及的药物的试验。

In some ways, the hesitation among pharmaceutical companies is understandable. In the nineteen-fifties, the sedative thalidomide was marketed in dozens of countries as a treatment for morning sickness, until it became clear that it caused serious birth defects, including malformed limbs and heart and eye problems. (The medication was never approved for sale in the United States.) Thalidomide’s failure had a chilling effect on progress toward a treatment. “Pharma had no interest in developing drugs, and doctors had no interest in prescribing,” Fejzo told me.

在某些方面,制药公司的犹豫是可以理解的。在二十世纪五十年代,镇静剂沙利度胺在数十个国家被作为治疗晨吐的药物销售,直到人们发现它会导致严重的出生缺陷,包括肢体畸形、心脏和眼睛问题。(该药物从未在美国获批上市。)沙利度胺的失败对寻找治疗方法的进展产生了寒蝉效应。“制药公司对开发药物毫无兴趣,医生也对开处方毫无兴趣,”费佐告诉我。

In 2025, the journalist Carey Jones published an article in The Conversationalist titled “Let’s Fund the Damn Research Ourselves.” Jones had read about Fejzo’s work on her phone, while lying on her bathroom floor during a bout of illness in her second pregnancy. “The bathroom floor was where I spent most of my time, always within arm’s reach of a toilet,” she wrote. Her late mother had worked in women’s nonprofits, and she reached out to the organizations she remembered hearing about. She set up a crowdfunding page, and tapped alumni networks and matching programs. (One wealthy woman who had herself experienced H.G. made a significant donation.) They raised almost $1.5 million, and Fejzo’s trial began in July.

2025年,记者凯里·琼斯在《对话者》杂志上发表了一篇文章,题为《让我们自己资助这该死的研究》。琼斯是在第二次怀孕期间发病时,躺在浴室地板上,在手机上读到费佐的研究的。“浴室地板是我待得最久的地方,总是伸手就能够到马桶,”她写道。她已故的母亲曾在女性非营利组织工作,她联系了她记得听说过的那些组织。她建立了一个众筹页面,并利用了校友网络和配捐计划。(一位自己经历过H.G.的富有女性捐了一大笔钱。)他们筹集了近一百五十万美元,费佐的试验于七月启动。

At the conference in Bergen, attendees were buzzing about metformin’s promise. In addition to Fejzo’s trial, there are two others, in the U.K. and the Netherlands, scheduled to start in the next year or so. But researchers cautioned that the drug’s efficacy has not yet been proven. It’s possible that it will work for some women but not others, or that it will provide only marginal relief, or none at all. The studies are necessary to show that the drug works. Rebecca Reynolds, a professor of metabolic medicine at the University of Edinburgh, who is running the upcoming U.K. trial, told me, “We don’t want to raise hope that this is going to cure everything.”

在卑尔根的会议上,与会者们兴奋地议论着二甲双胍的前景。除了费佐的试验,英国和荷兰还有另外两项试验计划在未来一年左右启动。但研究人员提醒说,该药物的疗效尚未得到证实。它可能对一些女性有效,对另一些则无效,或者只能提供微乎其微的缓解,甚至毫无效果。这些研究是证明药物有效的必要步骤。爱丁堡大学代谢医学教授丽贝卡·雷诺兹(Rebecca Reynolds)正在负责即将开展的英国试验,她告诉我:“我们不想让人们燃起希望,认为这能治愈一切。”

In some places, it may be too late for that. During one panel, we heard that a Spanish hospital was already using metformin as the standard of care for H.G. patients. Some patients have sought it out themselves. One woman, Lauren Alexander, had three difficult H.G. pregnancies before learning about Fejzo’s research. She convinced her doctor to prescribe metformin, and then took it along the lines of the trial Fejzo had designed. Alexander took the medication for six months before she became pregnant. In the early weeks, she felt a little nauseous, but nothing like what she had experienced in her previous pregnancies. She was able to keep working, and to care for her other children. Around week twelve, the nausea disappeared completely. “It felt like magic,” she told me. This past September, she gave birth to a healthy son. In Bergen, I spoke to others who said that they would consider trying it before the trials were complete. One afternoon, I sat with the red-headed midwife and a nurse, both of whom had had multiple H.G. pregnancies. “If my doctor had said, ‘Go out and eat a cup of dirt,’ I would have done it,” the midwife said bluntly. “I would have done anything to feel better.” She turned to the nurse. “Wouldn’t you?”

在某些地方,这可能为时已晚。在一次小组讨论中,我们听说西班牙一家医院已经在使用二甲双胍作为H.G.患者的标准治疗方案。一些患者已经开始自行寻求这种药物。一位名叫劳伦·亚历山大(Lauren Alexander)的女性,在了解费佐的研究之前,经历了三次艰难的H.G.孕期。她说服她的医生开了二甲双胍,然后按照费佐设计的试验方案服用。亚历山大在怀孕前服用了六个月的药物。在怀孕的最初几周,她感到有点恶心,但完全无法与她之前怀孕的经历相提并论。她能够继续工作,并照顾其他孩子。大约在第十二周,恶心感完全消失了。“感觉就像魔法一样,”她告诉我。去年九月,她生下了一个健康的儿子。在卑尔根,我与其他人交谈,她们说会考虑在试验完成前就尝试这种方法。一天下午,我和那位红发助产士以及一位护士坐在一起,两人都经历过多次H.G.孕期。“如果我的医生说,‘出去吃一杯土’,我也会照做,”助产士直率地说。“只要能感觉好点,我什么都愿意做。”她转向护士。“你难道不是吗?”

By a twist of fate, I had arrived at the H.G. conference in the ninth week of my second pregnancy. I felt a dull fatigue and a mild undercurrent of nausea. One morning, after my three-year-old had gone to day care, I was wiping down our sticky kitchen countertop when the smell of the cleaning solution suddenly made me retch. After I puked, I felt perversely proud, as if my nascent pregnancy—previously substantiated only by a thin pink line and a ravenous appetite—had forthrightly announced itself. “Definitely pregnant,” I thought. The friend of mine with H.G. experienced almost entirely positive reactions to her profuse vomiting from friends and family before it became clear that something was seriously wrong. Early pregnancy is so linked to illness that it’s more notable when the expecting mother has no symptoms at all.

命运的安排下,我是在自己第二次怀孕的第九周来到H.G.会议的。我感到一种迟钝的疲惫和轻微的潜在恶心感。一天早上,我三岁的孩子去了日托后,我正在擦拭我们黏糊糊的厨房台面,清洁剂的气味突然让我干呕起来。吐完之后,我感到一种反常的自豪,仿佛我那初具雏形的孕期——此前仅由一条淡粉色线和贪婪的食欲证实——终于直截了当地宣告了自己的存在。“绝对是怀孕了,”我想。我那位患H.G.的朋友,在她频繁的呕吐被确认是严重问题之前,从朋友和家人那里得到的反应几乎全是积极的。孕早期与疾病如此紧密相连,以至于当准妈妈完全没有症状时,反而更引人注目。

Every pregnancy is a gamble on the health of a woman’s body, yet mothers show up to place bets again and again. In Bergen, I met women who had prepared for their pregnancies in the full knowledge that they would likely be hospitalized, unable to work, or care for their other children. I spoke to one woman over the phone who left a high-flying job on Wall Street and spent years trying to wean herself off Klonopin after having H.G., who, once recovered, went on to have another child. (She now runs a company, Phoebe, which helps women navigate pregnancy and early parenthood while working.) I spoke to another mother who had internal bleeding during one of her three H.G. pregnancies. She wanted a fourth child, but she wasn’t sure if her body could physically endure it. Still, she was considering it. “There’s a real sense of, I’m missing this human in my life,” she told me.

每一次怀孕都是对女性身体健康的一次赌博,然而母亲们却一次又一次地前来下注。在卑尔根,我遇到了一些女性,她们在充分知晓自己很可能会住院、无法工作或照顾其他孩子的情况下,仍然为怀孕做好了准备。我通过电话与一位女性交谈,她离开了华尔街一份高薪工作,在患上H.G.后花了数年时间试图戒掉氯硝西泮,一旦康复,她又接着生了另一个孩子。(她现在经营着一家名为Phoebe的公司,帮助女性在工作的同时应对孕期和育儿初期。)我还和另一位母亲交谈过,她在三次H.G.孕期的其中一次中出现了内出血。她想要第四个孩子,但她不确定自己的身体是否还能承受。尽管如此,她仍在考虑。“真的有一种感觉,我的生命中缺少了这个人,”她告诉我。

The conflation of pain and pregnancy can lead to a tacit acceptance of discomfort that can be hard for both patients and doctors to parse. How much pain is too much pain? The crucible of childbirth is often spoken of as transformative, the self-sacrifice of pregnancy as part of becoming a parent. People resist epidurals because they want to be present when they usher in a new life. There’s an urge to preserve something sacred and ancient, to avoid handing everything over to our brightly lit, modern world. But pregnancy is also a medical state, sometimes a dangerous and complicated one, which has been improved upon immeasurably over the years. Imagine if we treated root canals in a similar way, assuming they will always be painful, imbuing that pain with spiritual meaning, and doing nothing to address the patient’s suffering.

将痛苦与怀孕混为一谈,可能导致对不适的默然接受,这让患者和医生都难以分辨。多少痛苦才算太多?分娩的严酷考验常被说成是具有改造意义的,孕期的自我牺牲被视为成为父母的一部分。人们拒绝硬膜外麻醉,是因为想在迎接新生命时保持清醒。有一种冲动,想要保留某些神圣而古老的东西,避免把一切都交给我们这个灯火通明的现代世界。但怀孕也是一种医学状态,有时是一种危险而复杂的状态,多年来,它已经得到了不可估量的改善。想象一下,如果我们以类似的方式对待根管治疗,假定它们总是痛苦的,赋予那种痛苦以精神意义,并且对患者的痛苦无所作为。

The conference hotel had a pool that overlooked the fjord, and women from all parts of the H.G. world—doctors, researchers, former patients—had put their swimsuits on for a dip. Some of them walked down a long path outside, and lowered themselves gingerly into the freezing waters of the fjord. Throughout the day, there had been so much talk of bodies—the ways they can fail, and turn on us, and the ways that they might be improved—but here, people seemed to wear their physicality lightly, as if they had shed several heavy layers.

会议酒店有一个可以俯瞰峡湾的游泳池,来自H.G.领域各个角落的女性——医生、研究人员、曾经的病患——都穿上泳衣去游泳。她们中的一些人沿着外面一条长长的小路走下去,小心翼翼地把自己浸入峡湾冰冷的水中。一整天,有那么多关于身体的讨论——它们可能如何衰竭,如何背叛我们,以及可能如何被改善——但在这里,人们似乎轻松地承载着自己的身体,仿佛卸下了几层沉重的负担。

In the pool, I ran into Vanover, the Indiana mom, staring out at the view. “Where I’m from, it’s all cornfields,” she said. “We don’t have anything like this.” She had never travelled alone before—she rarely left her children—but the conference organizers had sponsored her trip. In the water, she told me about being hospitalized three hours from her home during her second pregnancy. Her husband had to work, and for weeks she had no visitors. She was throwing up twenty-eight times a day, trying to keep a feeding tube down, while the doctors tried more than twenty different medications until one finally stuck. She was terrified about her daughter one day having to go through the same thing, though she was still very young. As she spoke, she grew emotional; her glasses fogged up, and tears rolled down her cheeks. “This is my therapy,” she said.

在泳池里,我遇到了那位印第安纳州的妈妈瓦诺弗,她正凝视着外面的景色。“我老家那边,全是玉米地,”她说。“我们那儿可没有这样的景色。”她以前从未独自旅行过——她很少离开她的孩子们——但会议组织者赞助了她的这次旅行。在水中,她告诉我,她第二次怀孕时,曾在离家三小时车程的地方住院。她的丈夫必须工作,有好几周都没人来探望她。她一天呕吐二十八次,努力保住一根饲管,而医生们尝试了二十多种不同的药物,直到最后一种终于起了作用。她非常害怕自己的女儿有一天也要经历同样的事情,尽管她还很小。说着说着,她情绪激动起来;她的眼镜起了雾,泪水顺着脸颊滚落。“这就是我的治疗,”她说。

When I met with Fejzo, she told me that her children were grownups now. Her son was getting married soon, and her twin daughters were twenty-five. Her pride was evident. We were sitting in armchairs staring out at the water, a little vase of wildflowers between us. After her miscarriage, she had thrown herself into the process of finding a surrogate. “People had advised me that you don’t get over something like that until you hold the next baby in your hands,” she recalled. I asked her how often she thinks about that time. “It’s a strong memory that doesn’t go away,” she said. “But I have so many other things to think about now.” ♦

当我和费佐见面时,她告诉我她的孩子们现在都长大了。她的儿子很快就要结婚了,她的双胞胎女儿二十五岁了。她的骄傲溢于言表。我们坐在扶手椅上,凝视着外面的水面,中间的小桌上放着一小瓶野花。流产后,她曾全身心投入到寻找代孕的过程中。“有人曾劝我说,直到你把下一个宝宝抱在手里,你才能从那种事情中走出来,”她回忆道。我问她有多常想起那段时光。“那是一段不会消失的深刻记忆,”她说。“但我现在有太多其他事情要去想了。” ♦

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